Fairly Odd Parent

My best friend found out she was pregnant last winter. While hanging out at my house, I was expressing my strong desire for ice cream. X suggested that I was having sympathy cravings. Who would have known that I was really pregnant? lol Wow, pregnancy must be contagious! lol

As time progressed, we laughed and thought about all of the trouble our daughters would get into as they grew up. We had plans! Aurora and Aria would be best friends too and we would do all of this *stuff * together .

Anyway, Aurora was born on 9/16/08- my oddchild. (yes, yes minus the God). That makes me the Odd Parent. I was so excited to see her and rushed to the hospital as soon as I got out of work. Lets not mention how excited I was to find a NEMO costume for her. As I held her at the hospital, I thought wow, in a few more months I will have my own little girl to have and to hold. I cannot explain how happy and excited I was about EVERYTHING!! Soon I was placed on bed rest and my best friend was operating on no rest. lol

Nobody ever imagined the tragic events that would unfold a few weeks later. I love Aurora like my own but I have not been able to see her. As the odd mother, I feel like I am failing. I should have been able to see her in the little NEMO costume but instead, I have to rely on photos. I guess you can only do what you can do........ I avoid anything that makes me sad, brings back memories etc etc. Maybe Aurora is going to be the one to make me cry? The Baptism is scheduled for DEC 28 and I am determined to be OK. It sure does help that I got out of partcipating in the mindless dribble that the church calls class. PRAISE JESUS!